things become flat to me...
work...
still hvn't found a job that i would enjoy and put great effort in it...
seems like i cannot get much satisfaction from any job...
is it worth wasting my time on my current job?
wht can i gain here? money, experience... but not fdship
wht will i lose...? my happiness, my time...
hate making doubts on my own decisions... perhaps i have never been a gd decision maker...
but is it really bad to reverse wht i hv decided to do? i dunno...
love...
there hv been obstacles and barriers between us... so as all other couples...
we tried hard to overcome them... one by one...
but as time flies, we started to ignore them... hiding our feelings in our heart...
no arguments, no yelling, but little sharing as well...
both of us hv changed a lot without each other's notice...
can we continue on like this?...
family...
we have never been a close family, although we spent more time tgt than normal family...
most of my bad dreams are related to family matters...
same... most of us are hiding our feelings deep in our hearts...
whenever one speaks out, the results is never a good one...
it has been like this since i was small, so accept it..
learnt to keep my mouth shut and enjoy whtever we share...
ha... everything is dull...
the only true happiness for me now is my dear lovely xavio...
he is so innocent and adorable that can make me forget everything...
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